WILLIEEE. LYK WOE NAH.
Sort of a venting entry, don't think to much into it.
:] Heller. So it's late... or early. Anyways tonight was fun, partially. It started out fun anyways. My mom's friends came over, again. Oh and Jered let the dogs in the house, Willie's freaking hyper, but he loves me now.[Willie's our new dog]
Anyways, it was fun up until the part where my mom tripped out. I mentioned something about her drinking and she freaked. Saying how she never drinks, she doesn't stumble into her room every night. I was like ok, and minding my own bisuness after the lecture. And all of a sudden she goes " GO IN YOUR ROOM."
"Why?"
"YOUR ANNOYING ME."
"What did I do?"
[jered buts in, but lets skip that]
" JUST GO."
So I went I could hear them talking about me. She was portraying me to have a perfect life, and she was whinning about her dad, which I feel bad, he was an alchoholic. I mean, I've seen my dad stumble, he use to be an alcholic.[God I can't spell] I've seen horrible fights between him and my step mom. I've had my dad be away from me for months, She knows it all. She knows I'm scared about him dying, because he smokes so much, because he's a horrible driver and could lose his one kidney and bam. Dead.
She knows I haven't had a perfect life. I was pissed listening to that, no, I don't want her to explain my life's story to them. But, don't act like I'm some brat with a no problem life. A no prob. life doesn't exist in this world, never has.
But it cleared up, they left. We wen't and talked. She was about to cry because I told her how my dad had drunk 4 beers and a shot the other day, and how I was worried he was going down that path again. We talked about my friend, and her horrible situation, we talked about it all.
I'm glad we did, because I vented. Normally I'm a very closed up person, It sucks but I can never push my self to vent to anyone but a freaking computer screen, or a diary.
I love my mom to death. Would do anything, and I mean anything for her. End of story.
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